I should trust my internal alarm. Woke up once, woke up twice. 9:30 am. Decided that I’d skip French and cook egg-soaked toast. Have a real breakfast for once instead of a microwaved burrito. I remembered that God is good regardless of what I accomplish at school- bigger than French, bigger than my interview. I let that fact settle and congeal.
As I walked over to research, a man spotted me in the rain. He offered his umbrella to me and he had green eyes. Tom Hardy, is that you? He said he worked under UCLA hospitality- why, kind sir, you do indeed! I wanted to lock him in a bear hug.
My research boss let me leave early for my interview, as if she were more concerned about it than I was. She even sent me a text of encouragement.
When I got the email- when I got admitted- the tears came.
Pine needles adorned with pearls of rain, forest green, thick milky skies.
I hear melodies in the hum of appliances. Cymbals in rattling pipes, scales in soaring airplanes.
Auburn leaves gently sweeping through the air in slow motion. Like the littlest petals. Bon Iver, maybe Bootstraps cooing. I am watching something unfold: a God-given moment.
“I love music that makes you look up at the sky”.
Today the rain falls the way it needs to rain in California. It is unrelenting, it is full-fledged release. The clouds have given up and they’re giving us their all. Take that and that and that. Take some more. And I resist the urge to run into it and bear the blows of aggressive generosity because of my freshly washed hair.
I can already feel the chill. I love post-rain weather in Hong Kong, when the hot cement has cooled and we can move without feeling like we’re wading through musk.